Welp, here we are. The end of 2010. The time for reflecting over events and people from the past year and look forward to what the new year has in store for us.
I for one am gleefully looking toward the future. 2010 has been an intense year for me and though I have no idea what’s in store for me in 2011, I can say that I feel confident I will rise to meet the challenges that may come and I will continue to take joy in the little and big moments that will make up my future year.
And now for a bit of self-indulgence, which I hope doesn’t bore you, but it’s my blog and I’m drinking tea and ruminating and feeling self-indulgent, so thank you for bearing with me. ;]
2010 has been an intensely felt year.
There has been so much emotion, pain, growth, and change churning around in this little island of me in 2010. This year has encompassed so much. From the passing of my grandma to the sudden illness and heartbreaking death of my dad, my insides are still trying to make sense of it all. Sometimes more successfully than others. I desperately miss my dad. Over Christmas, though, my family took a trip down to the California Redwoods. I found a perfect little babbling brook for him, just like he asked.
This has been a year of changes. I left two jobs, moved, stayed by my dad’s side for his sudden and staggering illness, put on a successful fashion show fundraiser and began the process for planning next year’s show, maintained this blog, conceived and began planning an international blogging conference, took charge of the 5 month estate monetary process of my dad’s death, hired a lawyer for the first time in my life, ended my two + year relationship with my boyfriend, considered a move to New York, started a new job, and had a handful of other ridiculous, intense, delightful and sad events that won’t make it onto this blog.
I’ve felt at alternate times incredibly empty and also incredibly full and overwhelmed. Throughout it all, I’ve also felt incredibly supported and loved by near and dear ones.These last few years have been immense and powerful for many people. I’m hoping the rush of events and emotions are slowing down and giving us all time to let out a collective sigh and start moving forward. I’m seeing little examples of this in friends’ and family members’ lives, and can only hope this will hold true for others and for myself in the year 2011.
I couldn’t have done this year without all of you. Thank you to the people who have lent their support through reading this blog or staying up to date on Facebook and Twitter; attending Modified Style; showing interest in Vida Vegan Con, comforting me when I felt like I may be breaking; hugged me; kissed me; shared a martini or cup of hot tea with me, listened to me waxing poetic and life and all it’s infinite puzzles, and for all those infinite little things that make up how wonderful each of you are.
A particular and grateful love goes to my mom, who became a marble pillar for me to lean on when my dad became ill; my older brother who traveled back from South Korea to be his great big wonderful big-brother self (and for bringing the amazing Rachel with him); Lid and Millie, for being two of the loveliest people in my life; Shelley and Laura for being so incredibly wonderful in every single way; Jess and Michele for being most excellent co-organizers; Abby, quite simply for being herself and being in my life; and Rob, who gave so much to me and was exactly who I wanted by my side for so long.
me and my mom in 1981
my brother, about to eat 50 toffuffalo, fall 2010
I’m looking forward to 2011–to learning more about myself and moving forward and further away from this year’s grief and into a new kind of happiness. I’m looking forward to Modified Style 2011 and the first ever International Vegan Bloggers Conference in August 2011. To moving toward more love and adventure and the wonderful nitty-grittiness of life. I don’t know what my future holds, but I have a feeling there’s some really juicy stuff coming up in my future.
Happy New Year, everyone, and may your 2011 be as glorious as possible. Thanks for reading.